An Old Soul

You're an old soul, I have heard this phrase a lot of times. An old soul can sense an old soul. And so do people around me.
Do you wish to have any supernatural abilities? ah.. I wish I had that stick of Harry Potter and Magic :) ( Potter you're missed) :(
Most old souls tend to have a philosophical outlook on life,
Well having spend 21 days in a room with no one around, no cell phone and nobody!
Just me, my room, my books and the moon. It was Amazing!
Life is at peace, Life is wonderful sometimes without electronic devices like cell phones etc.
I could watch my life go, every move can be felt.
Strange but cool :)
The tick tick of my wall clock is the only sound in the room. I am in a relationship with silence!
I got up early morning. Let me tell you it's hard to get up early in winter's. But I just love the sense of winter mornings.
With a cup of tea, I come out. I don't see the sun. I wish to see the birds but it's still dark. Dark clouds. Snowy cold.
The wind blows so good in the morning. The deeper I breathe, the deeper I love Life.
I feel old in mind and old in heart. Probably a good feeling.
I feel a deeper and more natural connection with the world around me. I am sensitive and spiritual in nature. I believe in karma too.
Sometimes while talking and knowing other's perceptions.. I think I have a different way to think about Life in terms of money,relationships, possessions etc. Though I don't know which one is better.
I love to write letters and not an email but actually hand-written letters to people around me.
I mean it's an honest feeling when I pen down my thoughts for that person.
My brother says I am old fashioned.
I have been called Weird on many occasions while growing up. When there was a choice between sitting at the adult's table or the kid's table. I would choose adults, because of the real conversations may be! (which is a good-to-know-information)
When I tell someone I "have a feeling" about something or someone. Why do people find logic over here? Its an instinct simply!
I believe in simple pleasures in small moments in Life. Having a cup of coffee on an unplanned evening with a friend is more than a surprise. Again those hand-written letters or notes, watching beautiful sunrise or sunsets, a new recipe that comes out perfectly, counting stars and then realizing I am mad.. To watch a salman khan movie with popcorn and coke alone in the room. (Well that's my plan for tonight).
These are the kind of things I love doing.
And I think to myself,
What a wonderful world :)
Well Life is not about fame,status,wealth etc. Happiness cannot be purchased.
I don't see the purpose of pursuing things that can be easily taken away.
I was labeled few days back. People are good at labeling others. While I can't fight with Labels, I can try to use it in a positive way. I don't know from where do I get the strength to forgive and be kind.
But When I see people going out f their way to help, it's a heavenly feeling. My perception of possibilities in Life expands.
Just as some old people describe themselves as being "young at heart" so too can young people be "old at heart"! :)

P.S-  Anyone can join me for the late night salman khan movie :)

Things my first job taught me!

Obviously! It was not a dream job though it showed me the real difference between expectation and reality.

Well, there were good times and bad times.

Besties were the main reasons to show up to the office. Without them, all I had was the Evil thoughts and Why my boss was not grateful for my work?lol

And there were days when I got into ugly fights with people in office. 

Overall it was a great experience, described as follows : 

1. Low pay is better than No pay.

I have worked hard for the most expensive Heels!

I don't know how but i understand the saving method now. Money not growing on trees made sense to me. ( heyy mom.. Got yaa)

2. The true meaning f Attendance and Deadlines.

It's a real deal here. Need an off?? Apply in advance unless emergency.

Remember Mass Bunk??

Crap! Noone does that here. You know why? Because then it will be called as Strike and not mass bunk. Lol

Time to wake up and smell the bloody coffee!

3. Free time is an illusion.

I ended up working 10-12 hours. 

Time management is a big deal , not as easy as I use to write in my business studies exam. But the fact is that I came out stronger.

4. Work Matters.

At work, the bosses don't care if one is wearing an expensive outfit. Quality work matters.

Anyway, nobody likes their boss. At some point am lucky enough to like my boss. And I never thought f quitting.

5. Crazy Weekend.

This feeling.. .. .. 

So.. this is what Life is all about?!?!! 

I even loved the sleeping and microwaving weekends.

6. Office Politics.

One cannot notice it. It can only be felt. I know I have described it well.  Lol

7. Nobody likes a Rude fresher.

People boss around freshers. If you say 'no' , that is considered as rude.

They treat fresher as a kid.

Everyone will tell you that this is not a college.

Alright, Thanks for the information. I'l make a note f that and draw a dick on the page. ( in the mind).

8. The big bad world.

Like a fairy tale, I use to believe in everything nice and lovely! 

But guess what? You get to see different kind f bitches. And what practicality is all about.

9. Screwed Days!

When everyone calls and say that you, personally, are screwing things up. Believe me, it's hard to hear that. 

10. Good customer service and Good Manners go a really long way. Period.

P.S- Sometimes Life is Simple, Plain and Good! 😊

A Letter to the Crush :)

 Hi Crush,
Thankyou so much for existing! I was getting pretty bored and then you came along to cast a big shining light on my Life.
I don't even care if we actually hook up (well sort of). I am just happy that you are there.
I don't know you that well, which is kind of great because it allows me to run wild with my imaginations.
There is something about you, something about your body language, something about the way you dress yourself, something something about that day you were sitting next to me.
I hoped you would say something or anything! But NO!
Hello?? Listen! I exist! Can we Talk?? (in the mind)//
All I did was to observe you from head to toe, your mannerisms, the way you use to talk to people, the way you smile, the way you run the hands in your hair to make it look better!
Then, there came a time when we started playing smiles on our faces every time we pass and That's It!
Maybe you're the kind of person who cut the crust off the sandwiches or maybe who wants to lead a charmed life or maybe the one who is selfish in bed or maybe who act to be funny!
I really have no idea. I like not knowing.
It lets me create a damn good picture of you and outing's, getting stoned when it's raining and going grocery shopping LOL.
All of these things are possible in my head. You could be this person.
Crushes are a wonderful thing. Everyone responds to them in the same way with this childlike sense of excitement and wonder.
You can be 65 and still feel the love and excitement. I wanna hold your hand because you get it and it gets you. And you're just 32. Oops!
You represent a possibility of change and romance. And you may not even know it.
You're just sitting there being cute and crushworthy, not even aware f the joy you have given me by just existing.
If you knew all this, maybe you would be really creeped out or maybe you feel the same or maybe just another girl for you!
I won't know until I actually do something about it. Therein lies the dilemma of having a crush.
Just thinking.. Do I actually want to act on it??
Exchange ph. no.'s and texts and calls. and then at the end, feel miserable!
Sometimes, it's fun to just have a crush.
I just need you to be there and be whoever. I want you to be in my mind.
It's not always about actually getting into a relationship with the crush.
Sometimes the crushes are there to make things easier, happier and SiLLy!
So I don't think I am going to do anything about it. I think I am just going to let it be.
I am going to keep you as my dream person and not have reality ruin everything or anything. Don't think of this as a sad thing.
You are the crush who will never be able to crush ME! LOL

P.S-- Pyaar ka matlab sirf haasil karna nahi hota LOL (akshay kumar) :D