Sunday, 1 March 2015

Just Let Me See You Again! Part- 2


Dear Grandpa,
It's another year without you. It's your Birthday and it's Raining. You see it had been raining all weekend and I knew it would continue to rain on your Birthday. I know it's not a coincidence.
Today the raindrop that fell on my cheek was a blessing from you. I know you're watching over me. May be in a way, you're just telling me not to be sad anymore.
Your soul and your goodness will never be forgotten.
If I could have one more day with you, I would let you know how much I love you.
I still remember your last day on Earth. The moment I saw you I could figure out that you are not breathing. The body was still.
My world had shut down, crying my eyes out and so much going through my head and I was so distraught and shocked at the same time.
I can still remember your smiling face, the way you used to sit, your voice, your hands.. the most comforting feeling in the world when I used to hold your wrinkled hand, and the way you cooked.
I cannot forget those morning walks with you.
There has been so many things you missed in these years. You should have watch me grown up. It would have been a privilege to get to know you as an adult and ask you the big questions about Life.
There had been times where I wanted to talk to you.
Life a few years ago sure was better. It's hard to forget you who gave so much to remember.
Today I completely behaved like a teenager, ate chocos stuff, played basketball and somethings that we use to share when I was a child. It was so much fun when you were with me.
Sometimes memories sneak out of my eyes.
But anyway, Thankyou for your love, your acceptance and your gentleness. For all the laughter, stories and great conversations.
You gave me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change and courage to change the things I can.
I feel blessed to be your eldest grandchild. I have spend more time with you.
I am also saddened  as I could not tell you about my love for you, how much I adore you and I appreciate everything you've done for me, for longer than I remember.It will really be great to see you again.
With love,
your love!                                                                                                
I know it's natural when someone dies. But it is so strange to talk about someone in past tense. May be I am over thinking. And I don't think i'l ever stop thinking about him.
I read this quote somewhere today "Our dead are never dead to us, until we have forgotten them."
I feel better.

P.S- For the good man is not at home, He has gone on a Long Journey!


Wednesday, 7 January 2015

Not a Wedding, Not a Baby Shower, It's her Birthdayy!

Today is the Birthday of someone very dear to my heart. She deserves the world. My Best Friend, Christina turns 23.

 
Dear you,
Happy Birthday! Happy 23 years to an amazing you! The age of Craziness.
While I am writing to tell you Happy Birthday. I am also writing to Thankyou for being awesome.
And I consider this day as an opportunity to let you know of my feelings though you may be knowing all of it.
But let me make this effort.
You're a friend to be treasured. You are no less than a sister. I love you more for loving me, for understanding me and for patiently listening to my spiritual concepts.
Today belongs to you. And I want you to know how important you really are to me.
No matter what happens today or tomorrow. You'l always be my best friend.
The day is the beginning of something great. Ahh.. Another year with you! 😀
You're one f the sweetest, big- hearted and generous people that I know.
So this weekend, you, me and Beers!
Out of all the words to describe you, I think the word that is more accurate is Generous.
O le.. Well you're so many more adjectives, kind, adorable and caring and just not ' had dinner and shit' lol
You complete another year of existence in this world.
Let me tell you. There's noone like you. Not a single soul out of the 8 Billion on Earth.
I know sometimes you feel like the world is being a jerk to you, but I know you can endure things well. Always remember you're a Beautiful Soul. So, act accordingly! 
You know,
There are multiple reasons for this letter.
1) I am broke and unemployed.
2) I enjoy writing.
3) you deserve to know you're awesome every now and then.
You are absolutely amazing inside and out. There's no way I could go through my life without you! You crazy freak! I Love You!
May God grant you all your heart desires, bless you with things money can buy, money can't buy and money itself!
Never forget who you are a wonderful person.
                                             With love,
                       A girl who's bringing up                                     Beers this weekend!


Thursday, 1 January 2015

New Year's Eve - A Disappointment!

Many people look forward to the New Year for a new start on old habits. Many plan to celebrate New year's eve at home with Friends and Families. Fewer plan to celebrate at a bar, restaurant or an organized event the whole night. While the rest don't plan to celebrate at all.
Well, celebrating New Year with a glass of champagne at a large party is not really my cup of tea.
If you're living your life the right way, you don't need one night of the year to force yourself to have an awesome time with people you love, because you're doing that throughout the year anyway. Also, everything go so expensive with the YOLO feel #
Anyway,
There is a poor little girl, 12 years old, works as a housemaid whose mother is suffering from a disease called paralysis.
Since this happened she left school and earns money so that she can buy healthy food on daily basis and some expensive medicines for her mother.
Today, she was called early for work and she would get Rs 100 extra for that. She was Happy.
Requesting her neighbour aunt to see her mother in a while if she needs something. She went off to work happily.
There was a party in the house where she works and was called for some extra help. she saw more than 9 dishes were getting prepared and her mouth started watering. she controlled her temptation and finished her work.
While going back home, she felt something was certainly different today. She was unable to understand Why people were buying so many things on this particular day. It was not the day of any festival or any religious ceremony.
The town appears to be different. Crowded places, so much decorations, lightings? Strange!
She scratched her head and sat on a seat to take a little rest. She was tired. And started thinking about her good old days of school and when her mother use to cook food for her.
As it was getting dark she started walking towards her home and suddenly realized she had to buy some medicine for her mother.
At the shop. Before leaving, she said to the shopkeeper "If you don't mind, May I ask you something?"
With a sweet smile , Sure! said the shopkeeper.
Why are all the markets crowded today? these decorations? Is there anything special? What is the reason?
The shopkeeper said, tomorrow it's new year. So people are buying things because they want to celebrate that day. With that, the shopkeeper offered a chocolate to the girl, wishing her a happy new year. Delighted she was.
While crossing the road, she saw some lovely, pretty and rich personalities enjoying and entering in a big lighted hotel.
Moving forward, another question comes in the little mind.
What happens if you celebrate New Year? she asked this to her neighbour aunt.
I don't know this. But they say if the first day of the year is good, the rest of the year will also be good, said the aunt.
She was confused thinking how she should celebrate it. She doesn't have all the money in the  world.
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She suddenly woke up in the middle of the night thinking about the new year. She could hear the sounds of the music. she was still. Thinking of the first day of the New Year. Her mind concluded that New means not old and everything will be new the next day.
She prayed for her mother's health and happiness.
As she saw the rays coming in from the window. She went out to see the sunrise. She wanted to see the New Sun. She tried to feel the newness.
Not a living soul as she walked out on the road. Not even birds had started chirping. It was cold. She wanted to confirm if there was any difference.
At about 9 a.m , it was time for a cup of tea for her mother. so she went out to buy half litre of milk. She saw that most of the shops were closed whereas they used to be open by this time.
With a down heart she was going back, a lavish car passed by throwing bottles out of the window on the (Govt.) Road. She picked up one to see what it is. She realized that it's alcohol.. and leaned in the thoughts of how her father died as an alcoholic.
During day time, she fed her mother with the stale food.
She had to buy rice and a vegetable. She used to spend Rs 40 every evening so that her mother could eat something healthy. She saw the shop was closed. It was 6 p.m. And she remember the shop remained open till 10 p.m.
She was surprised and asked a person as "Why is the shop closed?"
It's New year today and the owner has a party in his house. You can come tomorrow.
She was Sad.
Thinking that she and her mother would have to sleep empty stomach on the very first night of the new year.
She did not like the New Year at all.
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Things are bad but not impossible.
We're still talking about a person who at the very least can be expected to grow up, study, eat food, make friends, watch the sunrise, have ups and downs etc.
I'd never say things aren't that bad, because they are.
We can turn things around.

At the end of the year, like at the end of life, remembering all that happened, thanking for all the good and at the same time remembering where we lack. Give Thanks and ask forgiveness.

P.S- Just a reminder! :)