An Old Soul

You're an old soul, I have heard this phrase a lot of times. An old soul can sense an old soul. And so do people around me.
Do you wish to have any supernatural abilities? ah.. I wish I had that stick of Harry Potter and Magic :) ( Potter you're missed) :(
Most old souls tend to have a philosophical outlook on life,
Well having spend 21 days in a room with no one around, no cell phone and nobody!
Just me, my room, my books and the moon. It was Amazing!
Life is at peace, Life is wonderful sometimes without electronic devices like cell phones etc.
I could watch my life go, every move can be felt.
Strange but cool :)
The tick tick of my wall clock is the only sound in the room. I am in a relationship with silence!
I got up early morning. Let me tell you it's hard to get up early in winter's. But I just love the sense of winter mornings.
With a cup of tea, I come out. I don't see the sun. I wish to see the birds but it's still dark. Dark clouds. Snowy cold.
The wind blows so good in the morning. The deeper I breathe, the deeper I love Life.
I feel old in mind and old in heart. Probably a good feeling.
I feel a deeper and more natural connection with the world around me. I am sensitive and spiritual in nature. I believe in karma too.
Sometimes while talking and knowing other's perceptions.. I think I have a different way to think about Life in terms of money,relationships, possessions etc. Though I don't know which one is better.
I love to write letters and not an email but actually hand-written letters to people around me.
I mean it's an honest feeling when I pen down my thoughts for that person.
My brother says I am old fashioned.
I have been called Weird on many occasions while growing up. When there was a choice between sitting at the adult's table or the kid's table. I would choose adults, because of the real conversations may be! (which is a good-to-know-information)
When I tell someone I "have a feeling" about something or someone. Why do people find logic over here? Its an instinct simply!
I believe in simple pleasures in small moments in Life. Having a cup of coffee on an unplanned evening with a friend is more than a surprise. Again those hand-written letters or notes, watching beautiful sunrise or sunsets, a new recipe that comes out perfectly, counting stars and then realizing I am mad.. To watch a salman khan movie with popcorn and coke alone in the room. (Well that's my plan for tonight).
These are the kind of things I love doing.
And I think to myself,
What a wonderful world :)
Well Life is not about fame,status,wealth etc. Happiness cannot be purchased.
I don't see the purpose of pursuing things that can be easily taken away.
I was labeled few days back. People are good at labeling others. While I can't fight with Labels, I can try to use it in a positive way. I don't know from where do I get the strength to forgive and be kind.
But When I see people going out f their way to help, it's a heavenly feeling. My perception of possibilities in Life expands.
Just as some old people describe themselves as being "young at heart" so too can young people be "old at heart"! :)

P.S-  Anyone can join me for the late night salman khan movie :)

Things my first job taught me!

Obviously! It was not a dream job though it showed me the real difference between expectation and reality.

Well, there were good times and bad times.

Besties were the main reasons to show up to the office. Without them, all I had was the Evil thoughts and Why my boss was not grateful for my work?lol

And there were days when I got into ugly fights with people in office. 

Overall it was a great experience, described as follows : 

1. Low pay is better than No pay.

I have worked hard for the most expensive Heels!

I don't know how but i understand the saving method now. Money not growing on trees made sense to me. ( heyy mom.. Got yaa)

2. The true meaning f Attendance and Deadlines.

It's a real deal here. Need an off?? Apply in advance unless emergency.

Remember Mass Bunk??

Crap! Noone does that here. You know why? Because then it will be called as Strike and not mass bunk. Lol

Time to wake up and smell the bloody coffee!

3. Free time is an illusion.

I ended up working 10-12 hours. 

Time management is a big deal , not as easy as I use to write in my business studies exam. But the fact is that I came out stronger.

4. Work Matters.

At work, the bosses don't care if one is wearing an expensive outfit. Quality work matters.

Anyway, nobody likes their boss. At some point am lucky enough to like my boss. And I never thought f quitting.

5. Crazy Weekend.

This feeling.. .. .. 

So.. this is what Life is all about?!?!! 

I even loved the sleeping and microwaving weekends.

6. Office Politics.

One cannot notice it. It can only be felt. I know I have described it well.  Lol

7. Nobody likes a Rude fresher.

People boss around freshers. If you say 'no' , that is considered as rude.

They treat fresher as a kid.

Everyone will tell you that this is not a college.

Alright, Thanks for the information. I'l make a note f that and draw a dick on the page. ( in the mind).

8. The big bad world.

Like a fairy tale, I use to believe in everything nice and lovely! 

But guess what? You get to see different kind f bitches. And what practicality is all about.

9. Screwed Days!

When everyone calls and say that you, personally, are screwing things up. Believe me, it's hard to hear that. 

10. Good customer service and Good Manners go a really long way. Period.

P.S- Sometimes Life is Simple, Plain and Good! 😊

A Letter to the Crush :)

 Hi Crush,
Thankyou so much for existing! I was getting pretty bored and then you came along to cast a big shining light on my Life.
I don't even care if we actually hook up (well sort of). I am just happy that you are there.
I don't know you that well, which is kind of great because it allows me to run wild with my imaginations.
There is something about you, something about your body language, something about the way you dress yourself, something something about that day you were sitting next to me.
I hoped you would say something or anything! But NO!
Hello?? Listen! I exist! Can we Talk?? (in the mind)//
All I did was to observe you from head to toe, your mannerisms, the way you use to talk to people, the way you smile, the way you run the hands in your hair to make it look better!
Then, there came a time when we started playing smiles on our faces every time we pass and That's It!
Maybe you're the kind of person who cut the crust off the sandwiches or maybe who wants to lead a charmed life or maybe the one who is selfish in bed or maybe who act to be funny!
I really have no idea. I like not knowing.
It lets me create a damn good picture of you and outing's, getting stoned when it's raining and going grocery shopping LOL.
All of these things are possible in my head. You could be this person.
Crushes are a wonderful thing. Everyone responds to them in the same way with this childlike sense of excitement and wonder.
You can be 65 and still feel the love and excitement. I wanna hold your hand because you get it and it gets you. And you're just 32. Oops!
You represent a possibility of change and romance. And you may not even know it.
You're just sitting there being cute and crushworthy, not even aware f the joy you have given me by just existing.
If you knew all this, maybe you would be really creeped out or maybe you feel the same or maybe just another girl for you!
I won't know until I actually do something about it. Therein lies the dilemma of having a crush.
Just thinking.. Do I actually want to act on it??
Exchange ph. no.'s and texts and calls. and then at the end, feel miserable!
Sometimes, it's fun to just have a crush.
I just need you to be there and be whoever. I want you to be in my mind.
It's not always about actually getting into a relationship with the crush.
Sometimes the crushes are there to make things easier, happier and SiLLy!
So I don't think I am going to do anything about it. I think I am just going to let it be.
I am going to keep you as my dream person and not have reality ruin everything or anything. Don't think of this as a sad thing.
You are the crush who will never be able to crush ME! LOL

P.S-- Pyaar ka matlab sirf haasil karna nahi hota LOL (akshay kumar) :D

Just get Married!

A marriage is a very important occasion! But that doesn't mean there has to be a valid reason for marriage. Parents just need an excuse but there are more things required for a marriage.                                                                                                         
Weirdest reasons that can lead to a big fat Indian Wedding :

1.We want to be free from our Responsibility. You should get married.
Kya main boj hun?? :D

2.It's your great great grandparent's last wish. You should get married.
  What about my wishes?

3.You are getting old. You should get married.
   OMG! 22 is so old.

4.You are growing fat/becoming ugly. You should get married.
  wooooww!

5.All your friends are getting married.  You should also get married.

6. You are getting bored. You should get married.
OK! Let's turn on the T.V.

7.School Done. College Done. Job Done. You should get married.

8.Late marriage means late kids. You should get married.
 So you want me to be a mother at 24?

9.How will your younger siblings get married? You should get married.
 As if it's illegal.

10. Relatives and friends keep asking us about the marriage. You should get married.
Why don't they die??

11. Accha Rishta hai. Acche rishte bar bar nai milte. You should get married.
 WoW. sounds like I have won the lottery!

12. Getting married early is a better idea. Because in case you get divorced, you'll still have a chance to marry someone else. You should get married.
WTF!!!

13.After getting married, your husband can drop you to/pick you up from office. You should get married.
OR maybe, we could just buy a car!

14. You are irresponsible. Shaadi k baad logo mein responsibility ajati hai. You should get married.
And then? then what? be responsible for one more person!

15.Because mummy ko ladka pasand hai. You should get married.
awww! lekin Ladki ko ladka pasand nahi!!

16. Because kabhi na kabhi toh shaadi karni hi hai. You should get married.
wow! how intelligent!

17.Don't you want free, unlimited, socially improved sex? You should definitely get married/
wooo! Like a Boss!

18.Because there is no shubh muhurat for the next 5 years. You should get married.
OKAY!

19.Because your parents and his parents have been best friends for the past 20 years! You should get married.
Okay! then let me go for a Europe trip! Jeelene do mjhe meri zindagi!

20.Abroad ghumna hai?? shaadi karlo? Honeymoon foreign me karlena! You should get married.
And I thought we just need a visa and a passport for a foreign trip!

21. There has been no functions in the family recently. You should get married.
Just wait for Diwali then!

People have been trapped by these reasons! Are you one f them ? LOL

P.S- Laugh! :D :D :D

The Crazy Souls Forever! :)

Besties are like soul mates! I guess, we must have tagged ourselves in the spiritual world itself, before entering the Earth!
We have been through a lot together. We have helped each other through a bunch of shits, celebrated each other when something good happens, spent time arguing over really dumb things!
They know everything! Things that are embarrasing and things that can get me in serious trouble. LOL
Things that can only be understood by besties! :
1. Insecurities.
You put on a happy, strong face in front of the entire world. Everything is good in Life, great work, great food, great life! They know the actual truth and are not judgemental.
2. Mood swings.
Feeling low at work?? Gloomy mood?? It can be predicted! They know how to just cheer you up and not just food!
3. What a Break means?
Grabbing a coffee/Tea becomes code for going to sit and chat about everyone and everything for the next 20 mins. Bye.
4. The dark side.
Right from the time when you're drunk watching the sky and the stars and talking philosophical shit to the time when you randomly laugh ( and its just not a laugh) , a laughter and then being the most calm!
5. Actual tolerance to alcohol.                                                              

Whaat?? Did somebody say Vodka??
They exactly know what you drink! They exactly know what drinking means sometimes!
Well, if they aren't going to let me drink at work, then they shouldn't let fucktards work here! :P
6. What we really think of most people?
Most people probably think we like them, but we know exactly! The double eye roll behaviours, lol, the nuances of my behaviour are crystal clear to them :)
7. Shit happens!
LET ME RUN! In crappy situations, I always need their input first before I face anything with my boss or anyone. And they know how crappy I look in such situations!
8. Wierdness!
They are totally cracked up but still bear ( i wish i could write BEER) with my wierd obsessions, like Retention! (Mr. Lalit-- This one's for you!)
How completely normal it is to scream at each other and then laughing the next? LOL
They all know about my spiritual beliefs and kindness! And all the really, really stupid questions and opinions we have on worldly affairs, no one can imagine!
9. Love-Life!
They are the only people who know how much time I spend composing every wierd text I send to my crush.
They understand everything about my love life, from the new crush who broke my heart to the Man of my life, who is still lost! Can anybody find him please??
10. The Food!
They know that I eat dinner twice at night!
And, When I attempt to cook, it's not always a disaster! If one cannot make good maggi, doesn't mean one can't make great food! I don't like maggi :P
11. Double meaning!
Sense of humor that can only be understood by them. And the every stupid question I've ever had about sex!
12. Are we dating?
Rumors! Everyone thinks we're dating!
Why can't people grow up?? Why didn't their mothers swallowed them when they were born?? I mean... Whatever!
13. Crazy stories!
When I have an important exciting story to tell I have to re-tell it 5 million different times. And the people around find me wierd. But that's okay!
14. Creativity!
We are creative people! devised creative nicknames for practically everyone in the office.
15. When madness Strikes!
One can get mad at anyone but things get resolved easily. There are definately times when they gang up on me but I know it's really just out of love. They know the limit when can I burst out crying!
16. Adulthood.
We know we're adults and gossiping stopped being cool quite a few years ago. But How can we not comment on what my dear seniors did today? :D
17. The BET!
I love winning bets!
18. Don't Leave me!
When even one of them are on vacation or absent! It feels as if you have been abondoned.
Besties are the main reasons for showing up to the office! Without them all I have is the Evil thoughts and Why my boss is not grateful for my work?
Because when my Boss can't see it,Am grateful my besties totally gets it.
19. Am glad I met you all :)

P.S-- We can make a great reality show! :D                                   

Dear Pop,

First things first, I Love You the most! Growing up, I idolized you. This is untold but felt. It is a shame I never told you this. Never ever in these 22 years. Not that I just realized how wonderful you are. I always knew it.
Thankyou for being there when I took my first steps in the world though I don't remember the ride on the scooter to the hospital, I was still inside my mother! :P
Didn't we have the most fun while growing up? You always treated me like a boy, gave out all the love one can give out to their kids. I might be selfish but i take the pride when I say I love you more than momma.
After a point of time, I don't know why we stopped talking. We both got busy for each other , I guess.
But now, I want to Thankyou for yelling at me, even when I screamed that I hated you. You don't deserve those cruel names and the silent treatment, when I was in 9th grade.
Well, I had some problems with you being over-protective at times being a teenager but now I understand after getting out of home, I consider myself to be well brought up with all the love given. Pop, you grew up with me!

You and I had differences and yet you tried walking in my shoes and let me chose my way.
You tried to reason with me, argue with me and gave up when you were wrong.Your willingness to go out of your way to help me. And not even just math homework, but from my icecreams to my clothes because I was too little to know how, and checking under the bed for monsters and… okay, especially the math homework. (And sometimes I am too snot-nosed and stubborn to say thank you, so here : THANK YOU.)
While growing up, I realized you have added life to my years. Even through the worst parts of growing up, you've always loved me.
You know? I enjoy talking to you at random topics and I love the gossips and the laughter and the fights on the dinner table!
I love to hear your stories of the past about your life, about your struggle, about your wife!
Your advice weighs more on me than anyone else's. I always compare my crushes to you. I don't know how I measure them up.
I love those moments when we take each other's side and this lady- (yes the one below in the pic)

gets so annoyed and will constantly give the side eye, and it's hilarious.
The best part is we never judge each other.
you are the best person to travel with. With this , i mean Let's have an outing!! :D
There has always been this scenario, when I ask for a puppy!! Atleast one time in Life, Don't over think it and say, YES!
You have always taught me the value of money and Time! I understand now though I already suck you dry as a teenager and now on my wedding day! :)
Someday, Let me hold the wheel. I will always remember when you let me drive with you. I won't take the car to office :P
In the last 22 years, I don't remember the presents you gave but I do remember your presence! :)
No matter where I go in Life, who I get married to, how much time I spend out of the house with friends, you'll always be special.
Thankyou for guiding me into becoming the person I am now.
Thankyou for telling me that a lot men in the world are not worthy of my love and attention.
Thankyou for showing me exactly the kind of man who I deserve to marry. Thankyou for being exactly who you are to my mother.
In short, Thankyou for everything!

With Love,
Your grown up daughter! :)

P.S-- Life happens pretty fast! Let's cherish every moment! :D :)

To be a Human Being!

We live in a world where selfish and arrogant behavior patterns are often glorified. Kindness is not often given the importance.
What's wrong with the world?
Actually,I recently observed or may be, suffered such stuff around and figured out lack of humanity!
The purpose of human life is to serve and to show compassion and the will to help others. I read it somewhere, and I find it true. Well, I read a book that says ,we are on earth for a reason. And the reason is to improve the soul,your inner soul.
There are good souls, bad souls and evil souls!
That's It! Goodness is the first step.
Also, There are no religions in this world. We all are human beings. We praise only one God! There is beauty in difference. No one is born a racist. Teach love and respect.
We are human beings with 2 legs,2 arms and hands and feet with 5 phalanges on each. That's incredible. Also, a disastrous brain sitting at the top to control.
Religion has convinced people that there's an invisible man living in the sky who watches everything you do every minute of everyday. And the invisible man has a list of 10 specific things he doesn't want you to do. And if you do any of these things, he will send you to a special place of burning and fire and smoke and torture for you to live forever and suffer and suffer and burn and scream, until the end of the time.
But does anyone know? That man loves you and loves you and loves you! He expects humanity! If you people know the meaning of it!
Being a good person does not depend on your religion, race or skin color or whatever! It depends on how good your soul is!
The greatest cruelty is our casual blindness to the despair of others. We have to live as it is in this world as there is no other place to live.
Until we, human beings learn to have love and compassion for all of God's other living souls, we will never have peace.
There is still good in this world.
Being the change.
1. Giving the most kindness to those who seem like they least deserve it.
(I know my list! And this is helping me really really well.)
2. Give a simple well meaning smile.
(It makes my day!)
3. Delight in goodness.
( Focusing on the gooooood!)
4. Forgive.
( In Life, when you are forgiven by someone for a blunder mistake! You learn the meaning of it.)
5. Be funny, silly and playful.
(Just love your life and be silly!)
6. Appreciate simple pleasures.
These are life's simple pleasures that are commonly overlooked. And possibly daily sources of happiness that are right under your nose.
(Like, classical Disney movies!)
7. Give hugs!
( Because Hugging lowers Stress!)
8. Just plain give.
 ( It feels awesome).
9. Treat each person with respect, no matter what the age , race, color or qualification is.
10. Be sincerely honest.
( I am too honest and I love how deeply I connect to the most amazing people in this world).
11. Make it a point before you leave home that when you return, the world will be a much better place to live in! :D

P.S- My religion is very simple. My religion is humanity.
P.S.S- My room is so quiet that I could watch my life go..

You Cry, You Laugh, You Embarrass Yourself!

We have all the things in life that we want to change.
Our relationships, our finances, our energy levels, our stress, our weight, our self esteem, our fears!
Today, I sat down and thought of changing everything I want to change in my life.
I was too stressed.
So I thought of a thought!
This is Life!
People will screw you over. You'll fight with your family. You'll witness things that will change you forever. You'll lose best friends you thought would always be there. You'll come to realize everyone has a past.
You'll cry, You'll laugh, You'll embarrass yourself.
But then, you'll find your moment!
As you all know , I analyze things too much :P
 I examined my life!
1. Distractions, that keeps me away from the special moments.
Now, paying attention to those little things, the conversation, the laughter(if you know my laughter),the togetherness!
Moments with my loved ones, though I love to fight with them :)
Feeling loved :)
2. Busy Bee.
I am not that busy that I can't afford  few minutes of sanity.
When I spend time with myself, I discover the most amazing things.
Here we go,
I wish I could have told these things to myself some years ago.
(a) Stop spending too much time on the stupid opinions of stupid jealous people.
I am learning not to freak out on little things.
(b) What's important is to be kind to people.
(c) One of those absolute truths of life is that people will one day forget what you said, what you did.
(d) It's sometimes okay not to be okay.
It's okay to have a broken heart or hurt feelings or to be anxious or nervous.
It's just a sad part of the story, It's not the end.
The story is about the fairy tale stuff, a wonderful one!
(e) Enjoy the Life.Life is short. Let's live it fully.
I am in the joy I find in lazy sundays.
(f) People come and go.Some are meant to stay, some are not.
(g) Being Independent.It's better to be alone than with negative people around. Let's not rely, because at the end you only have yourself to fall back on.

3. Negative thinking.
Lets focus on good, and be grateful. Counting my blessings, I don't have time for the negatives.
4.The needless drama around.
Walked away from the nonsense drama and happy!
5.Comparison.
You know, I am the best. You can't compare the best.
6.Thinking about who I was and what I had in the past.
I am not the same person anymore, Everyone grows, so did I. That's Life.
7. Worried about the mistakes made.
I am a human being, that's all i can say!
8. Peace.
Can't find peace by avoiding it. Let's deal with it. :)

There are far better things ahead than you can imagine. Grab a BEER! :D

P.S- At sometime, You have just got to jump. You have to quit being scared of "maybe's" and "What-if's" and just fucking jump! :D

Happy Birthday to my Brother, who turns 17 today! :)

I have debated all morning long about writing this post. I have so many feelings of love and gratitude for my younger brother, I am not sure if I can convey what I actually want to, but i'll give it a try!
Happy Birthday Brother!
Guess who loves you?
Your Sister! Have a wonderful Birthday! I know you are having a Blast on my money! But It's okay for today! :D
I'm not exactly sure when you grew up but I see that you have all the strength and humor that it takes to be a good human being.
I don't know how it happened but you turned 17! It seems like only yesterday that you were tiny enough to hold.
You have stood by me and with me in so many different ways throughout the years.
From making sure If I am back in the house after sneaking out and asking me on many disasters I have put myself through.
And my reply would be " to just shut up and do your work! Don't try to be my elder brother! I'm the elder one, always remember that!"
And you know what?
I'm lucky to have you, I'm grateful :)

So, You're finally turning into a mature man. Now you understand how annoying you were?:P

I remember the time how excited I was when you were born after months!
You Fat Ass! You took the heart of everyone in the family, bloody took all the attention from me..
But, I'm glad Mom and Dad didn't listen to me when I said to return you from wherever you have come from or send you back to the hospital atleast!
I never could have made my childhood without you!
I remember the time when you fall off the balcony because you saw something, may be, an alien? :P
And also, I never forget this, a picture is moving in my head while I am writing this! alright..continuing..
When I use to stand outside your class in primary school and waiting with those heavy bags on my little shoulders,for your class to end so that we can go back home together because I was responsible for whatever happens to you, because I am the elder one! I mean what the? :Phuhh..
That moment when we laugh on the inside family jokes, when no one knows What's going on? :D
I love you more than you know. You have grown into an amazing young man, because you shave now :P
A brother like you deserves the best!
And see how blessed you are? I am your sister!
I love how we don't need to say, that I'm your favorite sister!
You know how difficult it is to shut me up..so here's some more!
1.I still remember I gifted you a chocolate and a remote control car on you Birthday, because at the end I knew you're going to share that with me and eventually the car would me mine, because I was fond of cars more than Barbie Dolls! :P

2. This is about the time when we were kids and I hated to tag you along with me when I went out to play, because you were a kid and a responsibility, so I would lock you up at house. I was EVIL.

3. The time when there use to be no electricity and we had no inverters at home.We use to lit up a candle and sit on the door step, hand in hand, waiting for mom and dad to come and save us, thinking that there is someone else in the house. LOL
The two darpoks!

4. And the time, when nobody was home, except you ,me and twinkle (our cousin), I got my right hand fractured because of my over confidence, You cried more than ME!

5. You were the most talented brother because you would help me study! I know, it's funny, but whenever I studied, I made you sit beside me and tell you all the stories of history and geography. (now you understand Why I flunked in History? :P)
And you took interest in all that crap and one day, you grew up and stopped listening.

6.We both loved watching Cartoons. And also you made fall in love with spinach Because of Popeye!
Remember? That's so raven, Zack and Cody? I miss them because We watched  these shows together!

7. We've had so many wrestling matches on our bed when as a rule, I use to won, because I am the elder one. And when you grew up, we stopped those matches!

8. Long time! I haven't read your private messages and chats! LOL But I am always shocked to see that you write such wonderful things to girls, and then you say, We're just friends! :P

You know what? I wanna growwwwww upppp once againnnnnnnnnnnnn :D
So! Happy Birthday my little brother!
AND!
LISTEN!
Do me a favor!
Please pretend that you're reading something really touching.
Maybe, even wipe away a tear and then call me and say , It was Beautiful and you didn't expected this! :)

P.S-- Happy Birthday to the world's most wonderful brother.. :) God Bless you!
P.S.S-- Dear Brother, Do text me some good things about the blog, if you want more money! :)

The Bad World Out There.. Lets Spark it!

I found that this Bloody world has the worst cases of fear. I din't knew about any other world, I use to be in my own world!
Anytime, you turn on the T.V, something bad must be coming up anywhere! And parents go all out in doubling up the protection. Children are constantly over protected from the world.. from germs, from strangers, from sexual attackers, at every corner.
Everyone is out to get you. We just see every possibility for something bad to happen and try to prevent. isn't it?
I am one of those glowing, blond people that wants everyone to believe that this world is a beautiful place to live. I want you to look at the world, look at the trees, look at the sky, look at the stars and see how great and amazing everything is! I mean to say that everyone has some good in them, that if we look deep enough, we can see how glorious every freaking soul is and at the end of the day we all deserve icecreams just for existing.
But, we can't deny the fact that,
The world is horrible, ugly and a disgusting place. Not only that, it's getting worse.
In all the time nothing absolutely terrible happened to me. I have never been robbed or beaten or tortured or anything like that..
Oh..while writing I just recalled one incident that took me to the days, when I started college! A biker snatched my handbag. Everybody in the market watched the show. Complete shock! I don't know what came in my mind and I just sat in the auto passing by and told him to follow that route.
And Guess What?
I caught him on the next Red Light! I was thrilled. I still have that bag with me. :D
I took the keys out and slapped him twice, called the police, though the 100 number did not worked, you must be knowing why? Whatever, I called the PCR.
Shit Happens!
Some people call it luck. But where I come from, the saying is : Every Man makes his own luck.. and Woman too! :D
So It's all about the EFFORT!
All of a sudden I was starting to have this positive view.. Rather than fooling yourself .. Deal with it!
Darkness is not everywhere! Rather than causing depression,lead a happy life. Just because there are few bad people out there doesn't mean everyone is out to get you!
I'm alert of what's happening around. I'm a little doubtful at first if a stranger is being too helpful.
It's not fear. It's being careful and looking at the world logically while keeping an open mind and being positive.
We should make ourselves stronger to be able to seperate the evil from the good.
The world may not be good, but come Let you and me spark the world! :)

P.S- I am not going to ruin my sunday watching News next time!
P.S.S-- My brother just asked me the topic for the blog and adviced me to write something on mosquitoes,a funeral speech, huhh..there gonna die today! He's on with the HIT Spray!

The Art Of Living Better!

While I was travelling in Metro today, after a long time! I noticed so many mothers with their kids on them. YES! On them! :)
And then, I saw a kid screaming for no reason. And that diverted me to all his cuteness, his expressions. I was all into him..fallen in love with his little hands and his little toes which rested on his mother's lap.
YES! It was him! A boy! Boys are lovely when they are kids. I don't know what happens to them when they grow up?? :D
Remember when you were a kid how easy it was to just let things go, to live without worry, when the biggest concern was to complete the homework so that we are allowed to go out to play in the evening.
Life of a kid : love surrounds them.
Somewhere along the way we lost that charm, that innocence and we became assholes, cheaters, liars, counselors and experts!
And there are some Real Jerks too who think they know everything about the world and others are born dumb!
But somewhere Deep down in our hearts, we still feel that childhood innocence sometimes.
So Now,
Lets just let go off the bullshit..
People who bother you, People who comment on your Body, people who comment on your nature, people who bitch about you, people who feel you are crazy, people who comment on your maturity, people comment on you loudness or shyness ( it could be anything), People who have no other work but to judge!
I mean, WTF, Get a life!
One thing that I realized, when dealing with Life is knowing that there will always be those who will judge us, even if they don't know anything about us.
Let's learn to accept that we'll be judged by others, because NoOne is Perfect.
Though, I feel I am perfect. Well, that's my thought and that's what matters more. Right? yeah right!
:)
I do not judge anyone. I accept the person they are , in real, because, then it's easy to go along. No One has the right to judge you. People hear stories, make up their own , assume and gossip! But they can't feel what you're going through, they aren't living your life!
You know what? I use to write my ideas in a private document for a year before I worked up the courage to start writing publicly!
So, Never live Life  in fear of disappointing others, because no matter what, at the end there would be someone or the other who'll be disappointed.
There are 2 choices.
You can either be JUDGED because you did something or IGNORED because you left your talent inside.
Where only the things I want to happen, It happens!
I know how to make it happen.
It's a Magic.
Magic of Belief! Try it out! :) Kids know this magic! :)
So Let's just forget about all that gives Stress or all that makes us Sad!
Focus on how you feel about yourself. Life is meant to be Happy.
YESSSS!! Happiness is the key to Life!
So, here's that time when our imagination is free to run wild and we aren't insecured about the Reality!
And What's Reality?? Some Jerks? Chuck them out!
Here's are some things to be learned.
1. Learn to live alone first.
Don't be scared to walk alone or eat alone. Don't let anyone's negativity affect you. Keep doing you know in your heart is right. Because when there is peace inside. Nothing else matters!

2. Change But Change for good!
Every time you'll get chances to change your life. Change for your Better!
Learn to make decisions instead of excuses.

3.Feel free like a Bird.
We live in an independent country. ( I agree I flunked in History, still I remember quite a things) LOL

4.Forgive! (and forget, like a kid).
Don't close the book, just turn the page. Bloody Hell move on to the next level.
Have a Heart to forgive, it will make you stronger.

5.Be Kind.
There are kind people in this world too. I adore them. I adapted this quality of being kind from them. Adapt Good!
Because, everyone has their good and their bad!
( forget the perfection concept here for a moment :P)

6. Smile.
Smile to heal the pain.

7. What else?
Any suggestions??
OK! Get Drunk! :D

P.S-- Where there is love, there is no judgement.Where there is judgement, there is no love!
P.S.S-- It's alright not to know all the answers! :)

From sister to sister : I love you!

If you are one of those people,especially the girls, who are lucky enough to have a sister,then, you will understand what I really mean! :)
One of the luxuries of writing the blog is that you can publicly declare things!
(She has no idea I am writing this).
Nothing in the whole world is better than having a sister! When I am messed up and stuck in some bloody situation in life, she is the one who picks me up,and carry me to the next destination and sometimes Vodka is complimentary! ;)
It is just fantastic growing up with someone like her, someone to lean on, someone to count on!
She knows me inside out, every bad thing, every good thing, every worry I've had, every celebration I've had. She is my midnight companion. She and I have late night 'Love you's' and maybe that's the reason we're still single LOL.
She can figure out my smile even in the dark. She is a teacher, well, she fits in the grandma category, When you press a start button, she'll provide you with all the teachings in the world, and then you'll forget where the stop button is!
                                                 

                                                            (chakna and daruu)
Last time, the only thing that saved me from the lectures was DAruuu! She was drunk! Well, it's nice to see an elder sister drunk and the little one behaving maturely LOL!
YESS! I do have a recording, but that can't go public :P
I miss you! Bloody you! I Sometimes, I feel that you're the reason I am alive for!
I wander, How do people make it through life without a sister?
We have laughed uncontrollably and we have cried ourselves to sleep!
We laugh at the fact we both seem to have the same freakish problems and I can go to her knowing that no matter what comes out of my mouth, she will never love me less and I will never lose her!
I feel secured! I am really grateful :)
I know, I'll never be alone!
she knows how crazy I am,yet, still she is proud to be seen with me in public!
I can't remember if I am the good sister or the Evil one! But If you would just do what I tell you to, I wouldn't have to be bossy!                                                                           
But you know what DeeDee?,
You are like an underwear,always near by me!                                                        

One more...
You are like a condom, always protecting me!
One more...
You are like viagra, always lift me up when I am down!
I can feel your laugh while reading this! :) You FAt AsS! Love you! See you sooooonn :)
We are Sisters!
If I am mad at someone! You are mad at them too!
End of story! ;) :D

Here are some signs of CrazY sisTers! (Well, I could probably say It's ours ) :P
1. Your favorite nights are staying in with each other and Drinking Togetherrrrrr(errrrr).

2. You adopt their shit list as your own.

3.The things you laugh about would make sense to absolutely no one else.

4.It doesn't matter how stupid it is, you actually do reference your wedding speeches for each other and how your kids will grow up.

5. Your parents sometimes ask about them when you call. ( I don't realize how the get to know about our planned and even unplanned weekends).

6.No matter how much time has passes, when we meet up, it's all lovely and hilarious as ever.

7. No topic is off limits, esp. Food!                                                        

8. You would adopt some of her Dialouges and mannerisms. (Crack).        

9. You don't have to do anything to have fun. (Well, we just need Good Food).

10. Occasionally, You get sentimental and tell them What's really inside! :)


P.S-- Sometimes, being a little sister is even better than being a princess! :)
P.S.S-- Salary will be credited to my account tomorrow! Come Home :D

Life as I see it...

There are days when what I want in life gets confused: it gets blurred over by distractions.
And there are moments in life when everything's on track! Moments in the middle of the life, the madness of life!
And I think we all need moments when we can  scream at the top of our lungs over the noise that surrounds us. So goes the cry of every human being on this Earth, not satisfied with all that passes, but always seeking in what is in front of us what will last forever!
We all have moments of freaking out!
That's why I decided that today's post would be something strange! I really don't know right now if I am making sense?
When everything gets heavy, we all need something unpredictable!
Well, as I am in a bad mood.. I predict something magical to happen! Something like whatever!
Something like..
A movie outing? A yummilicious roof top dinner? I wish I could meet my lovely sister now. I know it's late night! That's why i said magical Freako!
Alright! forget about magical predictions!
Here are some bloody truths about me, that can freak anybody's mind!

1. As a kid, I used to be terrified of crossing bridges, I wonder if in another life I had died in a drowning accident after falling off a bridge!

2.This is more of a confession. One day during my 6th grade, I prank-called a number and talk shit. I use to do this a lot of times when I use to be home alone. But that day, a lady who answered told me she DID have a caller ID and she would call the police. I Cried.
Chill. Nothing happened. These caller ID's took all the fun out of my childhood or what the? :/

3.I am also obssessed with the colour Blue. I don't know it attracts me or what?
As a child , I used to refuse to sit on anything but a blue chair at school.

4. My Birthday is on Jan 16th, I am a capricorn. So I am Direct and truth telling in all my interactions. Accepting the fact that I'm a psycho, It's really easy for me to get to the point.

5. I love coffee, coke, Tea and Beer. Not in that order. But you know what I mean.

6. I do not like talking on the phone. Just not one of the favorite things. But there are exceptions.

7.I love sunsets and flowers.

8. Crowds and large gatherings bring out my emotions and I'll often get teary for no real reasons.

9. I can't do that thing where you put your fingers in your mouth and whistle through them. I have tried and I just don't get it. Cool thing though.

10. I was terrified to start a blog out of feAR of faliure. I use to be scared to try new things because of other people being better than me.
But then I realized there will always be someone better or more talented out there, so that doesn't have to stop me from achieving my passion.

11. Somedays are real wierd! It feels wierd!

12. I love psychos!
 They are generally good- hearted people.
Christina! One of my psycho friend! She just messaged! " Send me a recording of your loving blunder laughter, I'm missing it"
Can you believe that??
Ohh MAN! I wish I could post all the recordings out here! She just changed my bloody mood!

Now what I realize is that we just need to change the story in the head to change the mood.
Thanks Christina! You're a Darling! :)

P.S -- I m grateful for my crazy, psycho, insane and just totally messed up friends, because normal people scare the crap out of me!
P.S.S -- Sometimes, I love to make absolutely no sense! ;)

I'm sexy and I know it!

If u have a 40 inch hips then you're a sex bomb. BULLSHIT!!
I am not fat and I am not skinny. I am fine with my body. BUT then, Why everybody wants me to pick a side??
I love to eat! I love food and everything about it- the planning, the preparation and Eating!
Cooking is absolutely an enjoyable and meditative process.
It's just not eating that makes me happy- It's Cooking too!
I lovvvvvveee to cook!
But I hate to bake! I am too much of a "Lets see what happens when I throw this in" to bake with much success.
It's not that everything I make come out wonderful but I continue!
Last night, I made Indian Spiced Chicken! And it turned out Excellent! :)
                                                    Have a Look! Mouthwatering :)

I would be a liar if I didn't admit that I also enjoy the compliments I get from the people I feed!
I didn't realize when I developed a genuine interest not just in eating, but in cooking too!
Another thing I love is the pleasure food gives, to both, to others and to myself.
I strongly believe that food prepared with love has the ability to pass that love along. I love the feeling when I put it in front of my family and they finish it all and ask for more!
awwwoooh!
Perhaps I am just getting sentimental.
Letting go off the sentimental items!
I choose to eat food that I like and that makes me happy!

Here are 7 things that bothers me so much! Sometimes!
Never say these 7 things to a Fat girl!


1. You're not Fat!
I am Fat. Listen,I have seen myself. In fact, I have seen myself naked. So, it's not like my fatness is a surprise.
When I say that I cannot wear something like a one-piece dress or a strapless dress ,I am not offering commentary on my body! I hate my arms, They're Huge! YESS! I cover them up!

2.You'd look better, if you lose a little weight!
Oh Really?? You're Right! Let's work on that! Do you have any openings in your private practice?? :/

3. Euu! I'm so Fat!
Don't talk about  being Fat around a Fat person when you are not Fat. It sucks for 2 reasons.
a. Don't talk shit about your own body, the outside world does that enough!
b. If you think you're Fat and you are roughly half my size, What do you think about me then??
Don't dare to answer that!

4. Exercise!?!?!
Oh Really?? As if I haven't heard about it before! I know what exercise is? and I also know what a gym is? It's that place where you buy Donuts! Correct??

5. Have you lost weight??
NO! NO!
And if I had, it's because am deathly ill. I'm starting to think you need some glasses or some sort of prescription medication.

6. Just Diet!
I don't like diets and I don't like being told by people who have found a way of eating that suits them and who then try to make it suit everyone else!
Have you people noticed how food has become a Religion?
No Meat, No wheat, No cheese, No grains, No dairy, No animal products, No sugar, Raw food, BLOOD GROUP food?? LOL It's hilarious!
My diet is better than yours! Go to Hell!

7. Concern! just Helping!
DON'T! I'll ask for help when I'll need it. I am your friend and you care about me — I am so very grateful for that care and affection! I love you, too. And that means I might actually be willing to talk about my health with you. But let’s try to make things about my actual health, if you have an actual concern, instead of my weight.

I think it’s great if you’re happy with yourself inside and out. If that’s the case, I commend you whole-heartedly.

P.S-- I am eating Chocolate pasteries! It makes me feel gooooood! Anyone? :D

Bitch Please! Get a Life! I'm Limited Edition!

Men love bitches. If men keep loving the bitches, the bitchiest women will live on!
We are human beings with a range of negative as well as positive emotions. But we also need to know that there is a big difference between a strong bitch and a weak bitch.
A strong bitch is not afraid to say what she thinks and is mature enough to ignore because she knows if she would bitch back then she would do it better!
Today, I am writing this because I have encountered a lot of bitchness recently!
Most people may think, What do women bitch about??
Well, it could be Anything and Everything!
Here we go!
Bitches at my workplace!
1st week
Girl Gang!
6 Girls together! Hanging together, Eating together, Bitching together and working together!WHHHAAATTT a FUN! OH how can i forget? Going to the washroom together as well :P SiLLY!
2nd WEEK
Divided by two! (If u know what I mean?)
3rd WEEK
Big Blunder! All Apart!
In short I would say, I was blessed with a true friend, christi! Angel in disguise! Standing beside me in my worst situations!
You can see this crack lady beside me :) In the pic below! :) :* :* Love you!

You know it's going to be a great story when it starts off with..
SO THIS BITCH.. who doesn't like to be called a "bacha", an immature BITCH who has the ability to fuck her own life pisses me off ! (Laugh)
And here's another BITCH, who can read your eyes! So Beware!
She said she can read it! LOL
Well, what an advantage? Could she make out that her B.F wants to make out?? (Laugh)
Total Stupid Creatures on Earth!
Truly judgemental! That's how she is! Judging people by looking into their eyes!
That's called Assuming!
I believe it's better to ask than to assume!
May be that's why I am loved by everyone!
No Assumption!
Direct Conversation!
Forever Relation!
Awww! I'm gonna try poetry this time for the lovely Bitches!
Fuck Off Bitch
Sick of your Shit!
What's next?
Forget the poetry! I have a question!
Can people die from constipation? Well, I'm a little concerned with how full of Shit you
BITCHES are??
You Little Bitch!  You showed me your Middle Finger that to with a smug smile!
Awwohh! How could I forget? You're A BITCH!
Her Middle Finger game has increased to an extent that I have been visualizing a Witch exactly like her showing me the middle finger with her gap broken teeths, in my dreams! Ahhh! Horrible! I know!

Well, I can make your Life a living Hell, But instead I'll just sit back and watch you do it yourself!
After having a Fantastic weekend and After Soul-searching, I've come to realize that I am too nice!
And have found that Why do BITCHES BITCH?
1. Hormonal Issues
This is a good one! Its okay for them to blame their attitude on monthly issues. It really can be down to hormones and we all know when hormones come into a situation we really can't help it. So consider that aspect if a woman is being unkind to you!

2. Menace
I must have intimidate her without realizing it. I am more likely just being 'Myself' and that is enough to get up most women's noses!

3. Uncommonness
 Somewhere along the line she feels lesser than me. IF she is lacking, then that's not my  Fault!

4.Fear
 I AM, may be, what she fears about! This goes back to being myself! I have probably all the nice things in Life!

5. Jealousy
I may have something that they feel they haven't got!
It could be anything from a better nature, better intelligence, better dressing sense, better breasts, loving friends, loving brothers and sisters, fantastic family, a better life! :) ;)

6. Bitterness
If someone holds a grudge against you is pretty hard to deal with because the fact is that they don't like you!

Who the Fuck said that I don't have feelings??
BITCH!
I FEEL hungry every hour! :D :D :D

Here's a suggestion! How to handle a BITCH??
Ignore! Once you accept the fact that they have got lesser brains, you'll start helping them.
Stop worrying! Stop asking yourself, what have you done wrong?
Get on with your Life!
It takes time and effort!
Someone told me! Patience is the Key! :D

P.S- I got a SEXY hair cut , and these BITCHES had a Burnt Ass! On a scale from one to over it, I'm at a see you later, Mother Fuckers!

P.S.S- My parents don't know about my blogs! Let it be a secret after this one! :P

Just let me see you Again!

There are few relationships where the love is virtually unconditional and endless. The bond between a grandfather and a granddaughter is really special.
It's his Birthday todayy! I cannot explain the feeling I have in my heart right now.
He believed in Celebrations! Yess! Whatever! Whatever the occasion is! And today, I am doing the same. Celebrating his Birthday, with all his memories! :)
Maybe, I miss him more because I am his first grandchild! Although my mom was married to my father when I was born! LOL
Well, He was a Man of his words! He was loving, firm and straightforward ;)
He had a head of figures. Before you put your head up, he'd tell you your total! My father and me inherited these qualities from him! :)
Two days back, I saw an old man with little grey hairs, holding the back of her granddaughter's bicycle so that she doesn't fall off. They were happy to be with each other. I could feel the bond between them.
That was a moment! The sound of the Bloody car Horn made me realized I was staring them.
That made me miss my grandfather!
These are the earliest teachings, riding a bicycle for the first time, bloodying hands and knees. At my time, Grandpaa and Dad both consoled me as I wondered if I should ever ride again.
Those were the days! He would pick me up after school. He had a Kinetic! And I loved to ride on that!
My mother was a stickler when it came to Homework, always making me start right away. He used to save me from this torture!
He was biased towards me Always! I was truly loved.
What I felt that parents always judge you, they say you shouldn't do this, you shouldn't do that. But your grandparents will always be on your side even if you're wrong!
But a few years ago he became ill, he got a paralytic attack, the whole right side of the body got paralyzed.
He was in hospital for some months and some years at home! It was sad to see him suffer like that. And within 4 years this amazing man with a heart larger than life itself, passed away! I could not show my feelings! I always hide it!
Well But Now, I have something to say!
Dear Grandpaa,
You have been, and always will be, the best man I have ever known. You give selflessly and provide for others in all that you do; I admire that so much about you and hope to live my life in the same manner.
It's hard to believe that you have been gone, gone forever! Although I'm glad you don't have to suffer anymore, I still miss you!
You're presence can still be felt. You raised my parents in such a way that no one else could have done a better job. They are so good to me! I wish I could have you back. I wish you were here to watch me grow up. You went in such a hurry that you did not even give me a last chance to give you one last hug.
Anyways! It's your Birthday, I just got striked by one of those days when we use to surprise you with a cake on your Birthday! I could see the Happiness in your eyes! This makes me miss you even more!
Thank you for being such a wonderful role model and leaving a lasting impression on my life. I hope to always make you proud.
I take great comfort in knowing that when its my turn to leave Earth, you'll be there to greet me. Knowing this has taken away my fear of death.
Have fun in Heaven! :)

This is super private and personal but I’m sharing this because I hope you will be kind to your grandparents. Tell them how you feel. Tell them you appreciate them. Tell them that their life has great meaning to you. Say the things that you don’t normally say, or maybe haven’t ever said.
I feel it because nobody was there to tell me this! I lost my chance! :/



P.S- I miss you!