Life as I see it...

There are days when what I want in life gets confused: it gets blurred over by distractions.
And there are moments in life when everything's on track! Moments in the middle of the life, the madness of life!
And I think we all need moments when we can  scream at the top of our lungs over the noise that surrounds us. So goes the cry of every human being on this Earth, not satisfied with all that passes, but always seeking in what is in front of us what will last forever!
We all have moments of freaking out!
That's why I decided that today's post would be something strange! I really don't know right now if I am making sense?
When everything gets heavy, we all need something unpredictable!
Well, as I am in a bad mood.. I predict something magical to happen! Something like whatever!
Something like..
A movie outing? A yummilicious roof top dinner? I wish I could meet my lovely sister now. I know it's late night! That's why i said magical Freako!
Alright! forget about magical predictions!
Here are some bloody truths about me, that can freak anybody's mind!

1. As a kid, I used to be terrified of crossing bridges, I wonder if in another life I had died in a drowning accident after falling off a bridge!

2.This is more of a confession. One day during my 6th grade, I prank-called a number and talk shit. I use to do this a lot of times when I use to be home alone. But that day, a lady who answered told me she DID have a caller ID and she would call the police. I Cried.
Chill. Nothing happened. These caller ID's took all the fun out of my childhood or what the? :/

3.I am also obssessed with the colour Blue. I don't know it attracts me or what?
As a child , I used to refuse to sit on anything but a blue chair at school.

4. My Birthday is on Jan 16th, I am a capricorn. So I am Direct and truth telling in all my interactions. Accepting the fact that I'm a psycho, It's really easy for me to get to the point.

5. I love coffee, coke, Tea and Beer. Not in that order. But you know what I mean.

6. I do not like talking on the phone. Just not one of the favorite things. But there are exceptions.

7.I love sunsets and flowers.

8. Crowds and large gatherings bring out my emotions and I'll often get teary for no real reasons.

9. I can't do that thing where you put your fingers in your mouth and whistle through them. I have tried and I just don't get it. Cool thing though.

10. I was terrified to start a blog out of feAR of faliure. I use to be scared to try new things because of other people being better than me.
But then I realized there will always be someone better or more talented out there, so that doesn't have to stop me from achieving my passion.

11. Somedays are real wierd! It feels wierd!

12. I love psychos!
 They are generally good- hearted people.
Christina! One of my psycho friend! She just messaged! " Send me a recording of your loving blunder laughter, I'm missing it"
Can you believe that??
Ohh MAN! I wish I could post all the recordings out here! She just changed my bloody mood!

Now what I realize is that we just need to change the story in the head to change the mood.
Thanks Christina! You're a Darling! :)

P.S -- I m grateful for my crazy, psycho, insane and just totally messed up friends, because normal people scare the crap out of me!
P.S.S -- Sometimes, I love to make absolutely no sense! ;)

I'm sexy and I know it!

If u have a 40 inch hips then you're a sex bomb. BULLSHIT!!
I am not fat and I am not skinny. I am fine with my body. BUT then, Why everybody wants me to pick a side??
I love to eat! I love food and everything about it- the planning, the preparation and Eating!
Cooking is absolutely an enjoyable and meditative process.
It's just not eating that makes me happy- It's Cooking too!
I lovvvvvveee to cook!
But I hate to bake! I am too much of a "Lets see what happens when I throw this in" to bake with much success.
It's not that everything I make come out wonderful but I continue!
Last night, I made Indian Spiced Chicken! And it turned out Excellent! :)
                                                    Have a Look! Mouthwatering :)

I would be a liar if I didn't admit that I also enjoy the compliments I get from the people I feed!
I didn't realize when I developed a genuine interest not just in eating, but in cooking too!
Another thing I love is the pleasure food gives, to both, to others and to myself.
I strongly believe that food prepared with love has the ability to pass that love along. I love the feeling when I put it in front of my family and they finish it all and ask for more!
awwwoooh!
Perhaps I am just getting sentimental.
Letting go off the sentimental items!
I choose to eat food that I like and that makes me happy!

Here are 7 things that bothers me so much! Sometimes!
Never say these 7 things to a Fat girl!


1. You're not Fat!
I am Fat. Listen,I have seen myself. In fact, I have seen myself naked. So, it's not like my fatness is a surprise.
When I say that I cannot wear something like a one-piece dress or a strapless dress ,I am not offering commentary on my body! I hate my arms, They're Huge! YESS! I cover them up!

2.You'd look better, if you lose a little weight!
Oh Really?? You're Right! Let's work on that! Do you have any openings in your private practice?? :/

3. Euu! I'm so Fat!
Don't talk about  being Fat around a Fat person when you are not Fat. It sucks for 2 reasons.
a. Don't talk shit about your own body, the outside world does that enough!
b. If you think you're Fat and you are roughly half my size, What do you think about me then??
Don't dare to answer that!

4. Exercise!?!?!
Oh Really?? As if I haven't heard about it before! I know what exercise is? and I also know what a gym is? It's that place where you buy Donuts! Correct??

5. Have you lost weight??
NO! NO!
And if I had, it's because am deathly ill. I'm starting to think you need some glasses or some sort of prescription medication.

6. Just Diet!
I don't like diets and I don't like being told by people who have found a way of eating that suits them and who then try to make it suit everyone else!
Have you people noticed how food has become a Religion?
No Meat, No wheat, No cheese, No grains, No dairy, No animal products, No sugar, Raw food, BLOOD GROUP food?? LOL It's hilarious!
My diet is better than yours! Go to Hell!

7. Concern! just Helping!
DON'T! I'll ask for help when I'll need it. I am your friend and you care about me — I am so very grateful for that care and affection! I love you, too. And that means I might actually be willing to talk about my health with you. But let’s try to make things about my actual health, if you have an actual concern, instead of my weight.

I think it’s great if you’re happy with yourself inside and out. If that’s the case, I commend you whole-heartedly.

P.S-- I am eating Chocolate pasteries! It makes me feel gooooood! Anyone? :D

Bitch Please! Get a Life! I'm Limited Edition!

Men love bitches. If men keep loving the bitches, the bitchiest women will live on!
We are human beings with a range of negative as well as positive emotions. But we also need to know that there is a big difference between a strong bitch and a weak bitch.
A strong bitch is not afraid to say what she thinks and is mature enough to ignore because she knows if she would bitch back then she would do it better!
Today, I am writing this because I have encountered a lot of bitchness recently!
Most people may think, What do women bitch about??
Well, it could be Anything and Everything!
Here we go!
Bitches at my workplace!
1st week
Girl Gang!
6 Girls together! Hanging together, Eating together, Bitching together and working together!WHHHAAATTT a FUN! OH how can i forget? Going to the washroom together as well :P SiLLY!
2nd WEEK
Divided by two! (If u know what I mean?)
3rd WEEK
Big Blunder! All Apart!
In short I would say, I was blessed with a true friend, christi! Angel in disguise! Standing beside me in my worst situations!
You can see this crack lady beside me :) In the pic below! :) :* :* Love you!

You know it's going to be a great story when it starts off with..
SO THIS BITCH.. who doesn't like to be called a "bacha", an immature BITCH who has the ability to fuck her own life pisses me off ! (Laugh)
And here's another BITCH, who can read your eyes! So Beware!
She said she can read it! LOL
Well, what an advantage? Could she make out that her B.F wants to make out?? (Laugh)
Total Stupid Creatures on Earth!
Truly judgemental! That's how she is! Judging people by looking into their eyes!
That's called Assuming!
I believe it's better to ask than to assume!
May be that's why I am loved by everyone!
No Assumption!
Direct Conversation!
Forever Relation!
Awww! I'm gonna try poetry this time for the lovely Bitches!
Fuck Off Bitch
Sick of your Shit!
What's next?
Forget the poetry! I have a question!
Can people die from constipation? Well, I'm a little concerned with how full of Shit you
BITCHES are??
You Little Bitch!  You showed me your Middle Finger that to with a smug smile!
Awwohh! How could I forget? You're A BITCH!
Her Middle Finger game has increased to an extent that I have been visualizing a Witch exactly like her showing me the middle finger with her gap broken teeths, in my dreams! Ahhh! Horrible! I know!

Well, I can make your Life a living Hell, But instead I'll just sit back and watch you do it yourself!
After having a Fantastic weekend and After Soul-searching, I've come to realize that I am too nice!
And have found that Why do BITCHES BITCH?
1. Hormonal Issues
This is a good one! Its okay for them to blame their attitude on monthly issues. It really can be down to hormones and we all know when hormones come into a situation we really can't help it. So consider that aspect if a woman is being unkind to you!

2. Menace
I must have intimidate her without realizing it. I am more likely just being 'Myself' and that is enough to get up most women's noses!

3. Uncommonness
 Somewhere along the line she feels lesser than me. IF she is lacking, then that's not my  Fault!

4.Fear
 I AM, may be, what she fears about! This goes back to being myself! I have probably all the nice things in Life!

5. Jealousy
I may have something that they feel they haven't got!
It could be anything from a better nature, better intelligence, better dressing sense, better breasts, loving friends, loving brothers and sisters, fantastic family, a better life! :) ;)

6. Bitterness
If someone holds a grudge against you is pretty hard to deal with because the fact is that they don't like you!

Who the Fuck said that I don't have feelings??
BITCH!
I FEEL hungry every hour! :D :D :D

Here's a suggestion! How to handle a BITCH??
Ignore! Once you accept the fact that they have got lesser brains, you'll start helping them.
Stop worrying! Stop asking yourself, what have you done wrong?
Get on with your Life!
It takes time and effort!
Someone told me! Patience is the Key! :D

P.S- I got a SEXY hair cut , and these BITCHES had a Burnt Ass! On a scale from one to over it, I'm at a see you later, Mother Fuckers!

P.S.S- My parents don't know about my blogs! Let it be a secret after this one! :P

Just let me see you Again!

There are few relationships where the love is virtually unconditional and endless. The bond between a grandfather and a granddaughter is really special.
It's his Birthday todayy! I cannot explain the feeling I have in my heart right now.
He believed in Celebrations! Yess! Whatever! Whatever the occasion is! And today, I am doing the same. Celebrating his Birthday, with all his memories! :)
Maybe, I miss him more because I am his first grandchild! Although my mom was married to my father when I was born! LOL
Well, He was a Man of his words! He was loving, firm and straightforward ;)
He had a head of figures. Before you put your head up, he'd tell you your total! My father and me inherited these qualities from him! :)
Two days back, I saw an old man with little grey hairs, holding the back of her granddaughter's bicycle so that she doesn't fall off. They were happy to be with each other. I could feel the bond between them.
That was a moment! The sound of the Bloody car Horn made me realized I was staring them.
That made me miss my grandfather!
These are the earliest teachings, riding a bicycle for the first time, bloodying hands and knees. At my time, Grandpaa and Dad both consoled me as I wondered if I should ever ride again.
Those were the days! He would pick me up after school. He had a Kinetic! And I loved to ride on that!
My mother was a stickler when it came to Homework, always making me start right away. He used to save me from this torture!
He was biased towards me Always! I was truly loved.
What I felt that parents always judge you, they say you shouldn't do this, you shouldn't do that. But your grandparents will always be on your side even if you're wrong!
But a few years ago he became ill, he got a paralytic attack, the whole right side of the body got paralyzed.
He was in hospital for some months and some years at home! It was sad to see him suffer like that. And within 4 years this amazing man with a heart larger than life itself, passed away! I could not show my feelings! I always hide it!
Well But Now, I have something to say!
Dear Grandpaa,
You have been, and always will be, the best man I have ever known. You give selflessly and provide for others in all that you do; I admire that so much about you and hope to live my life in the same manner.
It's hard to believe that you have been gone, gone forever! Although I'm glad you don't have to suffer anymore, I still miss you!
You're presence can still be felt. You raised my parents in such a way that no one else could have done a better job. They are so good to me! I wish I could have you back. I wish you were here to watch me grow up. You went in such a hurry that you did not even give me a last chance to give you one last hug.
Anyways! It's your Birthday, I just got striked by one of those days when we use to surprise you with a cake on your Birthday! I could see the Happiness in your eyes! This makes me miss you even more!
Thank you for being such a wonderful role model and leaving a lasting impression on my life. I hope to always make you proud.
I take great comfort in knowing that when its my turn to leave Earth, you'll be there to greet me. Knowing this has taken away my fear of death.
Have fun in Heaven! :)

This is super private and personal but I’m sharing this because I hope you will be kind to your grandparents. Tell them how you feel. Tell them you appreciate them. Tell them that their life has great meaning to you. Say the things that you don’t normally say, or maybe haven’t ever said.
I feel it because nobody was there to tell me this! I lost my chance! :/



P.S- I miss you!